Friday, December 31, 2004

conversation

hm. this is a conversation i had with someone while talking about a certain somebody:

XXX says:
1. you're not as tall as him
XXX says:
2. you're not as shuai as him
XXX says:
3. you haven't won NAC three times in a row
XXX says:
4. you haven't got his talent in music
XXX says:
5. you haven't got his talent in sports.
XXX says:
6. you aren't as cute as him
XXX :
and the list never ends

guess who he's talking about???

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

Fate

yep.. to continue where yk left off, fate is really an interesting thing, both loved and hated by people. Fate brings people together and also tears people apart. like they also say "缘分将我俩拉近,又无情地把我们分开" (classic soap opera scenes)

the irony of fate can be explicitly seen in airports... arrival gate will u see people crying out loud and hugging their loved ones; and at the departure gate, people sobbing for the loved ones leaving.

i'm lucky enough not to have any other the scenes at departure gates, or anything remotely simliar to it. and even luckiler, i got few incidents of the former (figuratively). take today for instance, i met my cousin and his wife! so sweet to be going out together... even though they're busy with the baby! and then i met 赵老师 at Borders! she said i never changed at all.. how true!

hm.. can't think of wat else to say. busy chatting!

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Learn to be lonely

yay.. finally 17 eh? wanna thank everyone who sent me birthday cards and sms-es.. shan't bother to include ur names, but really luv ya~~ ohoh.. thanks to all those who didn't sent me too... i'm SURE u remembered my birthday.. haha!! and thanks to eugene so his music box! it's so mesmerizing. (although it's only happy birthday)

typing with my new keyboard.. so cool! like the volume control button on the top of the keyboard!

well... heard this in the credits on Phantom of The Opera...

Learn to be Lonely

Child of the wildness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness

Who will be there for You
Comfort and care for You
Learn to be lonely
Learn to be Your one companion

Ever dream out in the world
There are arms to hold You
You've always known
Your heart was on it's own

So laugh in Your loneliness
Child of the wilderness
Learn to be lonely
Learn how to love
Life that is lived alone

Learn to be lonely
Life can be lived
Life can be loved
Alone

we've all got to accept that no matter how many friends and family u have, there will come a time when u will be all alone. friends and family will leave someday, and love for even ur most loved ones will eventually fade (or so i think). and even worst, there comes times when u feel alone even surrounded by hoards of friends, friends whom u only hang out with, and not pour your heart out to. tt's why people need soulmates i suppose. someone who can lend u a listening ear, and also a shoulder to lean on. but one's soulmate may never appear in his life. so it's good to accept the serenity of solitude. enjoy the peace, the silence, and the moment to sort out your thinking. afterall, they always say the only one you can depend on is yourself! so ppl, embrace ur lonliness!

not sure if i am making sense here.

but merry belated christmas everyone!

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

yawnz

The most ridiculous thing i've heard in the theater : “幸好我没有看到,要不然就活不过今天了!” This was when i was watching shutter... -_- we couldn't help but chuckle when one gal in the front row exclaimed that. heh. but shutter was really (if u didn't know the plot before hand..) good!

today was supposed to be my one and only free day every since that thing. BUT that had to happen. oh well. it's not as though it never happened before. gotta live with it.

hm... been wondering what my life would be like if i took another path other than the one which brought me here. they say life is like a road with lots of junctions (i think tt's what it's called). when u first start your journey, ur parents have set up a few road blocks, leaving u one straight path.

but there comes a time when u have to make a choice by yourself. studying at tchs, joining co, chosing my friends, studying at hwachong, joining huangcheng, becoming pres, alumni stuff... this list just goes on. there will be times when u question if u have made the right choice. if i had made other choices, i may end up like (for example) nicholas (crazy guy), eugene lim (attention seeking), naifen (!!!), or even smart people like... shengrong (highly impossible).

but i guess i shd count myself lucky to know so many gd friends along the way. hopefully u know who u are. some of you play a larger part in my life than they know it.. so if u havent been able to contact me recenty, i'm busy with alumni prac.. even on weekends... -_- so call me after dec 13! i will hopefully be free.. hehz..

gonna watch charmed s07e10 now!!

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

bored

erm... not been updating because nothing new has been going on these few days... i've no life!

these few days have been really boring... except for the frequent trips to swimming pool that is, though not to swim (and not that it isn't boring). anyways, spent almost all the time at home in front of the tv, ps2, computer or on the bed. i'm growing fat! haha.

erm. next thing comin up shd be the interaction and incredibles movie outing. will try to post pics!

Saturday, November 20, 2004

Sunday, November 07, 2004

...

Avatar: “Duality is self perpetuating. It feeds only itself. That is why the battle (between good and evil) has been raging since the dawn of time. There is no winner.”

Leo: “There can be”

Avatar: “How? With good, there is always evil. And so the battle never ends. Not until there's nothing left.”

Note: Avatars are beings proclaiming to be neither good nor evil. Beings with enormous power, with a common goal: to create a world without good or evil.

Quite thoughtful eh? Good and evil always exists together. there is no way that anyone can completely eliminated either one. so why the fight when it only leads to more destruction?

... oh well... nothing important anyways...

to end of,

You represent... hope.
You represent... hope.
You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't
mind being alone at times. You have goals, and
know what you want in life... even if they are
a little far fetched.


What feeling do you represent?
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Wednesday, October 27, 2004

hm..

此故事纯属虚构。。。

受不了了。我坐在一角,一个人忍住泪。毕竟,男人流血不流泪嘛。
唉,真难受。
结果,他走过来了。一句话也不说,悄悄地坐在我身旁。

就这样坐了五分钟。

天啊!泪水都快流出来了,难道要在他面前丢脸?我一转身,想立刻逃跑。这时,他那双强壮的手抓住了我的肩膀,把我身体一转,送入他的怀抱。抱的好紧哦。他终于开口了。

“...我都知道...”
我崩溃了。他的这么一句话,仿佛说出了我心中的一切:所有的痛苦,悲伤。也只有它能了解我。

haha... sounds quite crappy



Tuesday, October 26, 2004

luv?

I like this!

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest??

-It isn't love, it's LIKE.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of him.

-It isn't love, it's LUST.

Are you proud, and eager to show him off??

-It isn't love, it's LUCK.

Do you want him because you know he's there??

-It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.

Are you with him because it's what everyone wants??

-It isn't love, it'S LOYALTY.

Are you with him because he kissed you, or held your hand?

-It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.

Do you stay for his confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt him?

-It isn't love, it's PITY.

Do you belong to him because the sight of him makes your heart skip a beat??

-It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.

Do you pardon his faults because you care about him?

-It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.

Do you tell him every day he is the only one you think of?

-It isn't love, it's a LIE.

Are you willing to give up all of your favorite things for his sake?

-It isn't love, it's CHARITY.



Does your heart ache and breaks when he's sad?

-Then it's LOVE.

Do you cry for his pain, even when he's strong?

-Then it's LOVE.

Does his eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?

-Then it's LOVE.

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you to him even he doesn't want you anymore?

-Then it's LOVE.

Do you accept his faults because it's a part of who he is?

-Then it's LOVE.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with him faithfully without regret??

-Then it's LOVE.

Would you give him your heart, your life, your death??

-Then it's LOVE.

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Fun~

I know u guys are going to hate me for this, but pw's really fun!!! especially when u have a sweet and harmonious group consisting grace, alfred, yuan tying and me! (Note: notice the order of the names and the first letter of each name. Spells: GAYZ. Cool!!)

After open house, which was truly tiring, we had pw at LT2, and then class bench when uncle chong chased us out of the LT (as usual) then we worked and worked on my laptop, listening to songs of my mp3 player... the best part was after tt, when we ate instant noodles from councillors.. reminds me of our orientation when the seniors helped us buy instant noodles when we were preparing our item... those were the days... haiz. anyways, we then played volley ball and soccer in the central plaza!!! haha... first time we did such a crazy thing.... shd haf brought my cam!!

ok. enough about pw... and tt's all for this post!

Monday, October 18, 2004

Some people just don't get it

Sunday, October 17, 2004

post promo stuff

dun hate me for this, but i really liked the 3+ weeks of exam period. no troubles, no worries. juz pure mugging. exactly what a student shd do.

and then reality sets in. exams are only for 3+ weeks. now things are back to how they were. The period where i start to think and worry a lot. not about promos, but about... other things. i suppose only i have to know about them.

people dun usually realise how difficult things are until they actually experience it. and now that i have, im not exactly liking it.

the only thing that made me smile today: the msg yk left on my phone during maf (which was like months ago. and i only saw it now -_-") i'll keep that there! :)

and of coz i enjoyed the class outing! the heat from the barbecue, the cold from the pool, and of coz the exciting truth or dare! i particularly enjoyed adding charcoal to the pit.. (",) dun ask me y!

Friday, October 15, 2004

Notebook

"We sit silently and watch the world around us. This has taken us a lifetime to learn. It seems only the old are able to sit next to another and not say anything and still feel content. The young, brash and impatient, must always break the silence. It is a waste, for silence is pure. Silence is holy. It draws people together because only those who are comfortable with each other can sit without speaking. This is the great paradox.

how true.

btw, im sick... =<

Sunday, October 10, 2004

tearz

Sobz.... people's been saying im not cute!!!! *looks in mirror* okak wat... i'm cute!!! people just ADORE me!!! haha.... *carries on staring at mirrior* =>

-_-"

erm peeps. dun puke or sumthing. this came from an extremely BORED turboz. so there

(...but i'm not saying it isn't true.)

Saturday, October 09, 2004

...

so.. this is th meaning of life:

when u mug, u die.
when u dun mug, u stone.

what's the diff?

Thursday, October 07, 2004

behold!

hm. prmos sorta ened today.. spend my whole day at home in front of the com. can imagine what my life will be like during the hols. tt is apart from going for co. -_- anyways, quite like the test below. my first try was some magic being things, but felt that this was more appopriate. oh well.

i'm downloading the sims 2!!! hopefully it'll be done tml, and i can start playing after me class outing!! (while damian and tim are having class chalet... hmph)

Angel_sea
Sea


?? Which Angel Or Demon Are You ??
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Random pics


Cute doggie on me bed! Posted by Hello



Artemis, the goddes of the moon or sumthing... Posted by Hello

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

... Darn

and i thought a half hr "power nap" could do me good. and now i'm with a freaking headache... argh.... lots and lots of stuff to study.. when there's only 1 subject left... (physics SPA doesn't really count). So there. off to study.

Update (10.00pm): i have M&M, cells (III) and respiration left. oh, and that doesn't mean i finished studying the rest. in case u misunderstand.
:)

Monday, October 04, 2004

more and more tests!!

HASH(0x8a92c44)
You are green. Perhaps one of the most balanced of
all the colors. By balanced, I mean balanced
in both bad and good parts. Let me elaborate:
You're a natural, and somewhat superficial
person. You're extremely generous, but, to add
to the confusion, you're frugal and stingy.
You're a forgiving, but jealous person. You're
imaginative, but still logical. At sometimes,
you're a complete neat-freak, and other times,
you're a total slob. You're very stable, but
undependable. But onto the other traits that
are associated with this color... You're a
stubborn person, simply put. Do you believe in
Feng Shui? Green is closely related to the
thought of having a balanced environment, you
know. When in a bad situation, you're
painfully pessimistic, and when you're in a
good situation, you're extremely optimistic. A
fairly outgoing and amused person, you enjoy
talking to people, and hearing their thoughts
on different things. As a plus, when people
hang around you, it seems like time passes by
all the more quickly.


What color are you? (Amazingly detailed & accurate--with pics!)
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think lots of people have done this... my results makes me sound like a whore.. haha...

Saturday, October 02, 2004

more tests

soul food create
Create

You enjoy doing crafts and making things--no matter
how intricate or simple. You are generally
either mentally active, or physically active,
or both. You incline towards doing something
or you will feel bored and depressed very
quickly. You dislike indecisive people and
people who whine but do nothing. You tend to
either a loner, or the leader in a group.
Cooking and food in general fascinates and
intrigues you.

Feed your Soul: Take up a new hobby or sport. Buy
a frisbee or a kite. Try some hands-on art
like sculpting, cooking, or model making.

Connect with Others: Make them something--a card,
food, anything with your own special style and
touch.


What is your Soul Food?
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mid promos crap

Yay! i decided to let my radio blog autoplay itself in case there are people who have been ignoring it all this while.. shame on u!! haha...

erm.. nothing much to update now lah.. will update more when the exams are over.. i.e when the fun starts!!!

list of stuff to do
1. ice skate
2. karaoke
3. clear my room
4. stop messing up my room
5. go for co
6. go swim/gym (lose fat :P)
7. chalet if there's any
8. christmas!
9. my bdae!!

tt's all for now... will think of more.. haha...

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

more tests

xcn
You're a Spring. You usually are very close-knit
with your friends and value everyone freidnship
you have. You're a real people person and
everyone loves how friendly you are. You're
good with encouraging people but usually don't
like to be the center of attention. You are a
social butterfly and probably are in several
circles of friends but it's just because you're
well liked and you make people comfortable.
You're both fun and wise but you are very
realistic about life.


What season are you? (pics)
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Ger's list?

yellow lines are the true ones, stuff after "---" are my comments.

INSTRUCTIONS: copy this whole list into your blog.
bold the things that are true about you. whatever you don't bold is false.

01. when i was younger, i made some bad decisions ---Duh?
02. i don't watch much tv these days --- still do. quite a lot too~
03. i love broccoli
04. i love sleeping --- who doesn't?
05. i have loads of books -- yeah... sec sch textbooks
06. i once slept in a toilet
07. i love playing video games --- final fantasy!!
10. i watch 'One Tree Hill'
11. i like sharks
12. i love spiders, i think they're adorable,
especially the ones with bright colors on their backs --- tt will be gladys? haha
13. i was born without hair and I still have no hair
14. i like George W. Bush moron!
15. people are cool not in a crowd
16. i have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. i have an Envoy and a pool
18. i have a lot to learn --- duh?
19. i carry my knife everywhere with myself
20. i'm really, really smart. --- nicholas says so...
21. i've never broken someone's bones --- i'm so mild... y would i even do tt? (or can i?)
22. i have a secret --- yeah. and it's a secret.
23. i hate rain
24. i drink health juice sick.
25. punk rock is awesome.
26. i hate Bill Gates
27. i love Vietnamese food
28. i would hate to be famous
29. i am a morning person
30. i have semi-long hair
31. i have short hair
32. i have potential --- to be a slacker!
33. i'm pure Afghan
34. my legs are two different sizes --- does it matter??
35. i have a twin
36. i wear those long ass socks
37. i can roll my tongue. --- who doesn't?? oh. oops.
38. i like the way that I look --- except for the hair. haha.
39. i'm obsessed with Italian food
40. i know how to french braid --what's tt? some hair thingy?
41. i can be pessimistic or optimistic whenever I want
42. i have a lot of mood swings --- well. few ppl seen be angry b4. so...
43. i skateboard/snowboard --- i'd luv to try (without embarassing myself)
44. i think that skateboarders are HOT --- dun really know any of them.
47. i'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have --what's the link??
48. i think that I'm popular --- influenced by nick, wenjie and ppl
49. i am currently single --- no. i'm married with kids. u didn't noe?
50. i can't swim
51. my favorite color is either blue, red, or white
52. i practically live in sweatshirts
53. i love to shop --- only if i haf the money.
54. i would classify myself as either punk or goth
55. i would classify myself as ghetto --- what's tt?
56. i'm a prep, shop at abercrombie, and ADMIT IT. ---abercrombie???
57. i'm obsessed with my xanga. --- xanga???
58. i don't hate anyone --- well...
59. i know how to square dance
61. i'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mom --- i luv my mum!! haha..
62. i have a cell phone --- ok...
64. i watch MTV on a daily basis.
65. i know how to play the tuba
66. i love coffee.
67. i have had a girlfriend before --- no. i'm gay. -_-
68. i've rejected someone before --- how to when i nv had a galfriend?
69. i currently like someone and they have no idea that i like them --- hm...
70. i have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life
71. i want to have kids when i get older
72. i have changed a diaper before can you say thousands of them --- seen them on tv..
73. i've called the cops on a friend before and i'd do it again 74. i bite my nails --- huh?
75. i am a member of the Hilary Duff fan club --- she's the cinderella gal right?
76. i'm not allergic to anything
77. i love broadway plays, and have been to at least 3
78. i have no idea who the 38th president was. --- u mean people noe?
79. i plan on seeing Mary Kate and Ashley's new movie --- the twins. at least i know they're twins. aren't they?
80. i am completely shy around the opposite sex --- the goddess fears no one.
81. i'm online 24/7 well it feels like it
82. i have at least 25 away messages saved
83. i have tried alcohol or drugs at a party --- if u considered wine at psa dinner and .. k. no drugs.
84. i loved Rush Hour
85. i've read all of the Harry Potter books --- read none... potter fans, clobber me!
86. if i were a dwarf, i would be dopey --- which one is dopey??
87. i don't mind country music
89. i think that Juicy Fruit is the best type of gum
90. i watch soap operas whenever I can
91. i'm obsessive and paranoid and extremely jumpy
92. i would love to be demi moore because ashton kutchers a major hottie
93. i love the Beatles.. they're classic --- know one song i think
94. i know all the words to 'Barbie Girl' --- well.. i noe how to spell "babi grill"
95. halloween is awesome because you get free candy. --- u do?
96. i watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it --- nv watched it depite gd reviews.
98. i want this damned thing to be over! --- but i've nothing better to do..
99. i'm happy --- u could say tt.
100. i noticed there was no 97 --- now i realise

yay! i'm done with this thingy. so not fun. haha...

Monday, September 27, 2004

m.u.g day 3

Went to school to mug.. but actually was doing pw... when it was done, it was already lunch time.. so went to coro for lunch with my pw group, jianmin and junyong. After that went to KAP to keep on mugging... but KAP was way too noisy lor.. overflowing with students... (it's a school day remember?) so didn't study much... quite sad ar...

Anyways, will be going esplanade again!! anyone wants to go? haha...

Postcards i got from Espanade!! sorta cool ar.. so decided to post them up.

way cool!! haha... Posted by Hello


. . .right... -_-" Posted by Hello

ohoh!!! charmed s07e03 is out!!! (I suppose this is a paradox?)

Sunday, September 26, 2004

m.u.g reflections

Back from Esplanade! the environment there was quite good ar... but the librarian forbid me to study there too. so went to the library cafe...


My pass! Posted by Hello

Yep, my day-long pass to unlimited stay at 'Arts Digest' to study!! the only bad thing about it was the aroma of food that kept my stomach growling and growling...

Then went to Marche at hereens with my family... saw my aunt there too!! i've decided that Marche isn't tt good after all. not that the food isn't nice, but it's just too... western for me?? dunno...

after dinner, i walked pass this shop and stopped to look at stuff and the shop owner came and gave me these pins! not very expensive, but it was very nice of him!!!

NAZAR Posted by Hello
"According to an ancient Turkish belief, an envious look cast upon you can bring bad luck. This envious look is cast by The Evil Eye. Turkish tradition provides a charm for protection from the jealous and evil eye. It brings good luck too."

Good luck?? i'll need lotsa them~

Btw, next mugger station: Bata (...back to school... -_-")

m.u.g

Hm.. my next mugging station: Esplanade! i suppose we can study there right?? will be going there today to mug all the way to 5+, when my family will be going to Marche for dinner!! my mum's treat since my bro finished his prelims (although there's still As...) anyways, happy mugging!!

btw, for photos for the fun of it!

The supposedly charmed ones. (1 dead though) Posted by Hello

Update: it's 11.46am and i'm going to mug! (at last)

Saturday, September 25, 2004

MAF?

haha.. i tot it was the real MAF today.. i mean, juz look at this!

View from my window! Posted by Hello

then i realised it was 3 days away.
remember how i always used to go downstairs and play with lanterns and candles and stuff... but now i'm cooped up at home with lots and lots of work... i guz the child in me's disappearing bit by bit... which i dun really like .

Anyways, went to woodlands library to mug today.. finished studied biological molecules (i mean only bio molecules out of the whole syllabus. see how slack i have been?). met the chinese high juniors there... they were somehow rowdy lar. but oh well... then jianan came along too... studied with him until the librarian forbid everyone to do self study there... guz i'll have to find somewhere else to study tml..

Ohoh!! the 7-11 mash potatoes are so cool!!! the mashed potato came out from the dispenser like some funny goo, then solidified afer 2(!) seconds!! but the sauce was only average... so... do try it for the fun of it!!

k. i should start doing math.

Friday, September 24, 2004

tests

I am The Hermit

The Hermit often suggests a need for time alone - a period of reflection when distractions are limited. In times of action and high energy, he stands for the still center that must be created for balance. He can also indicate that withdrawal or retreat is advised for the moment. In addition, the Hermit can represent seeking of all kinds, especially for deeper understanding or the truth of a situation. "Seek, and ye shall find," we have been told, and so the Hermit stands for guidance as well. We can receive help from wise teachers, and, in turn, help others as we progress.

For a full description of your card and other goodies, please visit LearnTarot.com


What tarot card are you? Enter your birthdate.

Month: Day: Year:





You are Lost
Lost: You drift through life, unsure of your
feelings or goals. You are depressed, but
generally indifferent to what is going on
inside and around you. All you want is to feel
a sense of belonging.


What emotional state are you?
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Hm. These 2 tests seems to compliment each other somehow. maybe that's really who i am now.

Thursday, September 16, 2004

Quotes

hmph. heard 2 people talking about certain stuff. just wanna share it with u guys.

Bingfu was studing evolution . he sad to himself, "For example, a plant will grow taller if it receives adequate water and sunlight. Others less forunate may be shorter" Unfortunately, i only heard the last line. -_-"

Then i overhead some prominent ppl talking on the bus, saying how responsive the Arts people were and how the S6s and S7s should speak up more. even if it's to fill up the extra time. how unpleasant for the ears of an S7-er.

But then i thought. I have more unpleasant things for some of them. no offence, arts ppl. this is purely aimed at a particular someone on stage on a particular wednesday.

last thing. my web space server is down!! argh. the thing sucks. but oh well.

Saturday, September 04, 2004

The Notebook

记事本,
记载了他们
坎坷的爱情旅途。

爱情的甜蜜,
爱情的残酷。
对爱的执著,
爱所给予的奇迹。

倘若有一天我忘了你,
你会不会来找我,
唤醒我那沉睡已久的回忆?

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

Bourne Alfred

(title reads :"Bond Alfred") go figure.

Class outing today! Were supposed to meet at 9.30 am, but i woke up at 9... Oops.. Anyways, we watched bourne supremacy in the end, at Bourne's damn good!! haha...


Taken in the cinema by a theater cleaner. Oh well.

Ok. That was EVERYONE who turned up for the class outing.. all 8 of us. (out of 26) The next outing better be have a better attendance. haha..

Nwaes, serene came after the movie! we played pool .. was my first time playing pool.. so obviously i flopped... But it was really fun! i never knew there were 2 types of balls u were supposed to hit... -_-"


Me at pool! (with a very bright ball..)

btw, more pics can be found here.

Tuesday, August 31, 2004

Leave

hm.. was reading a blog from a particular friend.. wun bother to go into details, but a strange feeling just came gushing into my heart. feels like a cold heavy stone pulling down on your heart. (basically the feeling u get when u're depressed and maybe on the verge of crying). argh. i'll do better in chinese (i guess)

简短的几句话,
没有任何汹涌澎湃的感情,
只有淡淡的情怀。
但也足以使我
一股忧伤之情油然而生。

离别,
总是难受。
但愿我身旁的你,
永远不离我而去。

Sunday, August 29, 2004

TAF

Argh.. i just can't resist food... haha... was at my grandfather's house on Saturday, and for dinner, i ate 2 plates of rice, 4 butter prawns, 2 bowls of soup (all in LARGE proportion) and according to the my weight b4 and after the meal, i ate a total of 0.7kg of food!! argh.. imagine the amount of fats that amounts to.

Erm... hopefully u ppl wun be -_- after reading this.

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

reflexes

If only people could respond like brain reflexes. i.e immediately. hmph. tt isn't a gd metaphor izzit? wadeva. u get my point. hopefully everything will turned out well. tt is if the brain isn't dead.

argh.

Monday, August 23, 2004

inertia

hm. i tried to study. and i mean tried. time to give myself a slap or sumthing. =

Sunday, August 22, 2004

Athen 2004

*sorry for the swearing, but..
tt old bitch! fancy using so much undercutting on her balls (table tennis). its like one of the most crappy strategies used by anyone. basically just trying to wear our Jiawei out!! and well, there goes our only hope for medals... now singapore will have to keep saying,"ever since our 1st medal 49 years ago..." sigh.

but we can't deny she did well, juz SO close...

oh well.
quoting from jinx. resentment, resentment, resentment!


radio blog

yay!! i got myself a radioblog!! it's really cool... but very few songs though.. but they're all VERY NICE songs!!!

Nwaes, ge yao was great!!! esp ryan and suhan. the winner songs were really good.. though the others were also not tt bad... quite sad they didn't get the recognition.. peronally, desides the 2 qiu qian and du ping guo, i also liked tong nian and wo yao ai xiang... hopefully there'll be a recording of the performance... i'll be the first to buy it!

Chinese Soc ROX!
and XC 2004 too!!!

(btw... the goddess is finally gone!!!)

Friday, August 20, 2004

Damn it.

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

Spellbound

.
I am light,
I am one too strong to fight,
Return to dark where shadows dwell
You cannot have this Halliwell.
Go away and leave my sight
And take with you this endless night.

-- Charmed S01e15

Just have this urge to post this up.

Sunday, August 15, 2004

Comfortably In Love
How deeply in love are you?

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got this from grace's blog (again). and no, i am not in love. just answered the question based on what i think i would feel about the one if there were one. comfortably in love sounds really sweet. and nothing else more than that.

just another entry to push the goddess down. hehe.

Thursday, August 05, 2004

Goddess
You are a goddess!

Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
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haha... what an obscene picture... got this from grace's blog, and did it out of fun. and now they're calling me goddess... haha... nwaes, bio prac was dumb. haha~

Sunday, July 25, 2004

hm.  maybe i shd really start mugging. spent 9 hrs of the whole weekend in front of the static television set with the dumb machine. Then all the work starts pouring in at the last few hrs before bedtime. how sucky. maybe i shd not have appeared in the lt2 last december. everything would be so much easier. I order ppl ard, and not the reverse. ah, the joy of power. crap.

Thursday, July 22, 2004

面具
千方百计寻找适合的面具,
只为了掩饰忧愁。
紧急时刻戴上面具
才发现
面具竟是
透明的。

回到过去
腾不息的一桌,
笑声遍天籁。
我这才发现
如果能回到过去,
我想再deh一回。

梦见
静静的餐厅,
四个人的聚会。
话不多,
但心灵沟通十足。
情愿搭25个站回家,
也不让这聚会
不欢而散。

冰冷的讲堂,
温馨的画面。
第一次的主持
还不错吧。
情愿疯到全身湿透,
也不要带着伤感
回家。

甜蜜的梦,
终究要醒。
梦醒了,
也该回到现实了。

Monday, June 28, 2004

fine. i'll blog in english.

hm.. juz returned from my tiring China trip. the time spent slping on the bus was way longer than the time spent touring the place.. oh well... oh. and sorry guys.. didn't manage to buy anything for u... didn't find anytime worth buying ar.. will promise u buy sometime next time i go overseas ba..

"hope you pass."that's what someone said to me one the phone juz now. hm. REALLY hope i pass.. tml's the block tests and i honestly spent very little time studying for it ar.. but come to think of it, it's only a block test ar. can't help but think what's the use of studying so much.. haha.. maybe i still in the holiday mood. but oh well.

now comes the chinese. wk shd recognise this.


《一意孤行》
我知道你存在,
但不是到哪去找。
我知道总有一天你回来,
但不知被安排到哪一天。
你看着我疲惫地活,无动于衷,
甚至没有半点暗示。
我就这么艰难地,
像那遥远的,
一点微弱的光亮移动。
直到有一天,
当我心力不支告别人世的那一瞬,
你来了。

............................................

你,真的来了吗?
还是我垂死的挣扎,
顽固地把你的身影
逼到我身旁。
好让我,
安息。


hm. added the last 6 lines myself.

Sunday, June 13, 2004

有些人,有些事,
一辈子也忘不了。
就算你以为自己已忘了,
他一出现,
全部的回忆将涌上心头。

而你,
就要再花上一辈子
在忘了他。

Thursday, June 10, 2004

As I've Matured...

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

I've learned that one good turn gets most of the blankets.

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just plain jackasses.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

I've learned that whatever hits the fan will not be evenly distributed.

I've learned that depression is merely anger without enthusiasm.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up than you think.

I've learned to not sweat the petty things, and not pet the sweaty things.

I've learned that ex's are like fungus, and keep coming back.

I've learned age is a very high price to pay for maturity.

I've learned that I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy it.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities.

I've learned that artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity.

I've learned that 99% of the time when something isn't working in your house, one of your kids did it.

I've learned that there is a fine line between genius and insanity.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away. And the real pains in the ass are permanent.

Tuesday, June 01, 2004

chocolate heart
Heart of Chocolate


What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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hm.. got this from damian's blog... quite surprised that i actually got the same heart as him ar... but quite true ar.. esp the last sentence.. but.. 有缘,天涯也咫尺;无缘,咫尺也天涯。

heard this from ah sang's 叶子:孤单,是一个人的狂欢;狂欢,是一群人的孤单。makes a lot of sense ar.. go ponder abt it for a while.

Thursday, May 20, 2004

输了。
我似乎彻底的输了。
就因为几句善意的提醒,
使我起了疑心,
脱口而出,
便一发不可收拾。
结果,
输给了疑心,
输给了自己,
也失去了他的信心。

但... 也许是自己想太多了。
请别当真。

Friday, May 07, 2004

[别忘了,你体内闪闪发亮的。。。
勇气―――] 
―Alice 19th

just watched charmed s06e20, Stormy Leather. Suddenly, it all makes sense. Maybe no one should ever blame Narcissus for falling in love with his own reflection.


每个人都期望找到一个与自己一模一样的人,
一个比你自己更了解自己,
能了解你心中深处最渴望的需要,
花上一辈子填满你心中的空虚,
最失意,最绝望时,
唯有他明白你为何哭泣,
并与你分担那沉重的包袱,
点燃你心中那微弱的希望。
可惜,
这个人
不存在


Hm...it's not well written eh? but heck.

Saturday, May 01, 2004

argh.. hafing a sore throat now... so xianz... feels like i'm going down with a major illness... but i dun suppose it's that bad.. =)

Nwaes, went to the vj carnival today..it was quite fun loh.. and was awed by it too...i menthey have this carnival every year, and it seems to be all so happening and lively.. not like hc, which is more dull and dead... i mean, even the principal was on enough to play the dukem thing. (forgot what it's called.. basically u hit the target and the teacher falls into a tub of water) now then, imagine Mr Ang doing it. =X

yup, tt's what i'm talking about

and they had this fun stall too.. called bail and torture. basically u pay 6 bucks to tie a person up and throw water bombs at him, ((plus a lot of stuff).. and nick got it 2 times~

nick being totured

michelle got it too~
haha... but after a while quite xianz liaoz...went to jj's stall to play water bombs.. but accidentally wet some of his classmates bags... felt quite bad lah.. so sorry if u ppl see this... then we went to watch 50 first dates at suntec.. quite nice leh... imagine doing the same thing all over again, everyday...u'll know more if u watch the movie...

okok...i'm done with today's stuff...

Wednesday, April 28, 2004

hehe.... i'm so proud of myself today~~ actually did nothing much lah.. juz tt i went to tjc for the 2nd time my life to pass the tjco teacher-in-charge our concert posters, but ended up passing the posters to rachel... what a nice girl~ haha.. and got to see Chen Si!! She passed me the 绿园 tickets too.. looking forward to my 3rd time going to tjc..(the performance's held there) haha...ohoh.. and got a glimpse of the co room and saw Jamie too.. but was too embarassed to go in...felt so extra mah.. the only beige uniform around the green ones.. haha..btw, tj seems like quite a nice place leh... very... green? haha...

after that went out with junjie, justin, aj and nick to parkway parade for dinner and talked for a while... feels so good to betalking to your old friends again... esp junjie.. haven't seen him for quite a long time liaoz... then jj and nick went to play pool, while the rest of us strolled ard loh..then saw this 'mystery box', which is some wooden box which u're supposed to find a way to open it... immediately bought it!! coz i saw it on tv once mah..then it was going at 3 bucks!! the last time i saw it, it was 10+ at cineleisure... quite fun lah...

and i realised islam is quite a fun topic... all the stuff abt allah, medina, mecca, jihad and more... am i turning into a freak? haha...

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

argh.. izzit just me or do i juz suck at maths??? juz had my one and only maths tuition (for those who do not know, i STILL have maths tuition... bleahz..) i couldn't do any of the maths questions he gave me loh... so different from the tutorials... i'm assuming tt's what block tests will be like.. and it basically means i'm screwed.. argh...
k. done grumbling.

had the co interview yesterday... was basically quite ok loh... juz tt it was a new experience to see the whole committee (10+ ppl) sitting in a row in front of you shooting qns at you... hopefully, everything will turn out fine...

and... week 8 will be a busy week for all of us... . tons of lecture tests, Time tunnel, SPA and PW ... xianz...

Sunday, April 25, 2004

I hope the chinese characters can be read..
两天内,两个遴选,
两种截然不同的感觉。。。

星期五: 宣传组长遴选。大家严肃地围成一圈,沉默地听着一道道残酷的问题,并默默为他们祈祷。没有任何一个人能狠下心来投票,就因怕伤害对方。毕竟,大家这三个月都建立了深厚的友谊,也都证明了自己的实力。要做决定,很难。
最后,成绩揭晓,但气氛依然沉重。感觉实在难受。

星期六: 华乐执委遴选。这次,自己也必须在大家面前‘炫耀’了。团友一个个上前演讲,回答了无数尖酸刻薄的问题。老实说,这些问题的答案,我实在不懂。不知怎么的,随着时间一分一秒的过去,我的信心也跟着销声匿迹,不知不觉地,萌生了放弃的念头。也许是发现华乐团里存在着比我更有实力的人,或是因为认为大家对我的期望太高,而我害怕辜负了他们吧。轮到我时,才鼓起了那么一丁点勇气,上前说了一小段。这也许是我声量特小的原故吧。到了投票,也是毫无头绪。思前想后,硬写下了一些名字,才发现连自己的名字应该放哪儿都不知道。结果,‘ 曾智勇’旁没有打叉。我还是想当秘书。。。 但确不清楚自己的能力有多少。

该说得都说了,做了的事也无法更改。接下来,就看着吧。。。

Thursday, April 22, 2004

hm.. Beyond boundaries turned out quite well afterall... though there were a few occasional flops and stuff... but it was still an enjoyable experience. first time on esplanade stage leh. we did have some ups and downs esp during the rehersal... but at least no one flared p on the actually day. in fact, gc looked quite pleased!

It feels really good to be up on stage performing again... and strangely, when i was playing gan3 wen4 lu4 zai4 he2 fang2 during the rehersal, it brought back so many memories in tchsco, all the gd juniors and the even better seniors... it was where the fun started. and of coz, the fun's now amplified with the addition of xc ppl and the new scandals everyday!!! co's getting so fun... with all the crazy stuff xianyue ppl were doing (gnilleps gnihtyreve sdrawkcab) and timothy with the mind bogging hand games!! hopefully it'll be even better during the june concert~ and lastly, i miss the strawberry chocs.... who's gonna buy some for me????haha...

nwaes, a few photos to share...

the co xc peeps!!


erm... hoopefully she doesn't see this...


wad was found outside the cello/bass room.. suggestive eh?

Monday, April 19, 2004

erm.... juz in case u didn't notice the change or u want to shoot me down for the change in layout, pls dun... i'm trying to imporve... somehow...


hey.. just testing... can u ppl see this image?

Thursday, April 15, 2004

hm... it must be a blue moon now that i'm blogging... haha..

going for the MOE Pru-U scholarship interview tomorrow.... the first interview in my whole life... wonder how it'll turn out... anyways... co's getting more fun.. esp when u are able to mix better with the co peeps... and there's the co cum xuan chuan ppl that never fails to make us laugh our heads off... (even if we are the only ppl who get the joke) ohoh.. and i've received 2 be-very-lated bdae presents from brendan and yf... how nice of them~ thanks guys!

hm... kelvin show how he could bend his fingers to touch the back of his palm. and tt immediately remided me of rl.. haha... remember how he did it when i was cracking my fingers, saying he could do better... then was at suntec and ngee ann city with my dad to buy new shoes, and got reminded of the times when my close friends and i went out together... must be because i hafn't been going out much... so been thinking of the good old days.. haha...

k... nothing much else to say.. except that i've been slacking after hunag cheng, and it doesn't seem to go away... been lagging with my tutorials and stuff... xianz... luckily the interviewers wun knoe how slack i've become.. :)

Saturday, March 27, 2004

Hm... xuan chuan outing today... went to kster at chinatiwn.. will say mre about it in the next entry (if i'm actually consistent enoungh to blog)

right now, i just want to say say that there are some people in the world who only know how to grunt, scream and shout whenever things do not go in the way they want to.. and then, they just leave. Isn't trying to solve it a more pragmatic way of doing stuff? ok.. The only reason i can come up with is that he's just not smart enough to get anything done in the first place.

K. feel much better right now. even though he's just beside me

Wednesday, March 24, 2004


hm... i'm finally blogging again... and suprised to see so many peeps actually using the tagboard...

kk.. a few updates that most of u shd already noe abt...
yeah.. huang cheng's over... the few days after that was really p.h.d (post huang-cheng depression)... got that empty feeling and dunno what to do after school.. (for those who don't know.. i used to stay in sch until 9pm everyday during huangcheng)
Then co comes in... it's actually quite gd there too.. got to see familiar faces and get to talk a lot... and play those 'mad' songs.. (by that, i meant 'winter')

but as another friend pointed out.. seems like i've become quite distant from the rest of the peeps, in class or co... there was like little or no interactions with them... most of the time were spent in hc... izzit a good thing? wonder how things will turn out in the a few months later... and will i join hc next year? there's syf and stuff.... hm.. really haf no idea.

class stuff now.. serene's posted to nj... dun really like the feeling that sumone whom u spent 3 months with juz left like dat, to be replaced with sumone else. In this case, 2 gals joined the class. haven't reaaly toked to them yet, but at least one's in co and the other lives in cck~
nwaes, hope serene's adjusting well~

btw, xc outing on friday... hopefully everything will turn out fine... hopefully.

Sunday, January 11, 2004


found this from someone's blog...

Do you know...
The difference between margarine and butter?

Both have the same amount of calories.
Butter is slightly higher in saturated fats at 8 grams compared to 5 grams.
Eating margarine can increase heart disease in women by 53% over eating the same amount of butter, according to a recent Harvard Medical Study.
Eating butter increases the absorption of many other nutrients in other foods.
Butter has many nutritional benefits where margarine has a few only because they are added!
Butter tastes much better than margarine and it can enhance the flavors of other foods.
Butter has been around for centuries where margarine has been around for less than 100 years.
And now, for Margarine...

Very high in trans fatty acids...
Triple risk of coronary heart disease..
Increases total cholesterol and LDL (this is the bad cholesterol)
Lowers HDL cholesterol, (the good cholesterol) ....
Increases the risk of cancers by up to five fold...
Lowers quality of breast milk ....
Decreases immune response....
Decreases insulin response..
And here is the most disturbing fact....
HERE IS THE PART THAT IS VERY INTERESTING!

Margarine is but ONE MOLECULE away from being PLASTIC...
This fact alone was enough to have me avoiding margarine for life and anything else that is hydrogenated (this means hydrogen is added, changing the molecular structure of the substance).

YOU can try this yourself: purchase a tub of margarine and leave it in your garage or shaded area. Within a couple of days you will note a couple of things: no flies, not even those pesky fruit flies will go near it (that should tell you something) ... it does not rot or smell differently..because it has no nutritional value, nothing will grow on it...even those teeny weeny microorganisms will not a find a home to grow.

Why? Because it is nearly plastic.

Would you melt your Tupperware and spread that on your toast?

Saturday, January 03, 2004

ar... first day of school... nothing much loh... i suppose it's always a lot of introduction and talks...quite xianz lah.. seeing my friends falling aslp one by one... haha...

but at least got to see some of my classmates and seniors.. going to choose the subject combi today.. i suppose i'll be choosing triple science... shd be quite taxing... but wadeva

nwaes, hope the orientation will be fun.. and to all friends in other jcs, have fun too~

Thursday, January 01, 2004

hm... returned from the chalet today... generally quite fun lar... juz tt it was very tiring... i guz every chalet's liddat... slept from 4 hrs after i came back... bleahz..

LS treated the exco members to lunch at Ponderosa b4 the chalet... was actually my first time there... it was quite fun lah... all the lame jokes and salted drinks came up...

Nwaes, the chalet was basically a 'gambling den'... the first day.. most the the ppl there were sec3s are 4.. cept for ppl like LS and JH... then we played mahjong loh.. thanks to timothy who brought 2 sets of mahjong over. then bought some candles that we wanted to light at the beach.. but the land breeze was too strong mah.. so had to dig holes and lit the candles inside... then did some lame thing... shan't bother to elaborate...

then yunfei wanted to learn cycling.. then ended up loosening the bicycle chain... had a very hard time fixing it.. then timothy fell off the bicycle.. had quite a cut... and WK carried him back~~ so nice of him. yunfei and i went to buy bandage and medicine.. fussed over his wound... then played mahjong again..

next day... YF and teddy had to irritated us with black magic. and we still have no idea how it works.. argh... anyways, went cycling loh.. YF and WK learned to ride loh.. although not too gd yet.. think they'll be able to ride next time...

time was mahjong and BBQ time... saw a lot more seniors.. (dun need to mention who). spent the whole night on mahjong and card games loh.

on the whole.. quite fun lah