hm... had a whole day at home today... coz didn't haf paper.... and tomorrow, haf to wake up early, and go to school again.... if only the december hols were here.... i still feel like sleeping.. haha...

noticed i cancelled out the blog on 25/9/03

got a feeling of wat it felt like.. when u juz want to talk to somebody.. or just want to hear his voice... u wouldn't want to hang up, even if u ran out of topics...
but the silence.. unbearable... haiz... wonder when it'll return to wat it felt like?

nice cake and box theory by aj... really made me feel a lot better....

now i really wish somebody had asked me out today... life's getting boring... and my phone was/is/will be dead.

i'm blogging coz i've nothing to do.... so i guz tt's why everything's so short...

anyways

十面埋伏 - 副歌

只差一点点 即可以 再见面
可惜 偏偏 刚刚 擦过
十面埋伏过 孤单感更赤裸
总差一点点 先可以 再会面

仿佛 应该 一早 见过 但直行直过
只差一个眼波 将彼此错过

it's in cantonese, so language may be a bit guai4.. but nevertheless, a great song!

hm... really can't stand these days.... no mood to study, no mood to play.... it's lyk i slept the afternoon away, watched holland v, watched ps, and now, i've absolutely NOTHING to do... sigh... maybe i can spend the next hour in the shower... haha...

my blos are getting so short... but no one cares anyways

haiz.... hate it when ppl are concentrating when toking on the phone... it's like they aren't even listening to wat u say. If u dun wan to tok, juz say so, dun haf to keep quiet right?

hm.. got a taste of life after 'O's : boring. Spent the whole time at home surfing the net for nothing, browsing through wadeva channels i had, waiting.... and basically stoned the whole day.. and this has to go on for the whole month of December?? haiz... (tt is, of course, unless i get a job :| )

hm.. ppl are actually reading my blog.. amazing... even after lyk not blogging for god noes when, they still are??

anyways, history paper sucked today... i did the one on Nazi, but did not remember if it was rise of nazis or gain in support... so i did both.. ;P and i actually had time to finish everything... but luckily chose the gain in support one at the end... *pray*

just this one more day before i slack...but chinese is a bit diff... i'm going to start at 8... wonder when i'll finish???

只是想试试用华语。。。 没其他事了。。

hm... got this new tagboard thing... (strangely, it bears an uncanny resemblence to someone in class :P)

when will prelims be over?!?! argh... all this mugging sucks...

hm. tt's all i haf to say. ha

haha...
flopped bio prac... a very dumb error though....
looking forward to after prelims... when i hafn't studied history and geog yet... haiz.... maybe i'll follow wat weepin said... to work in the first 3 months..
sounds like a nice idea though.. er...wonder wat i'm thinking about... load of crap... i'm even crapping here... haha

hm... i can't believe i'm doing this, but i'm blogging in the middle of prelims. For some reason, this prelim doesn't feel like a prelim anymore... it's juz like a normal test, and u juz study the night b4 (looks like what i'm doing now)...

nv knew studying in the airport could me that condusive. esp when i'm alone. no one to bother me, no distractions, only other ppl who are studying as hard. Pity it's too far from home (a 1 hr 15 min MRT ride).

Both tchsco and hcjc MAF were fun... got to see the juniors i missed, got to feel "back in the co", and even juz to help them out was fun... but sorry i didn't stay to help clear up...
hcjc's was ok... partly b'coz i knew few ppl there, didn't know their mass dance, and of coz, not part of them. but it was gd to see the seniors again, and bought this heart shaped capricorn keychain (the one on my sling bag now) haha... wonder who drew it???

wadeva i feared to happen happened. "internal conflict" and this doesn't look like a simple case to me... with one "stubborn" guy and another guy whose "not trying his best". (btw, i hope both of them doesn't know about this blog of mine :P) So basically a cold war between the USA and USSR, with the newtreal Swiss(me) stuck in the middle... haiz...

i think tt's about it for thw past few days... oh, found out i dun haf a "leaving note" thing.. anyone has any program i can kope from... pls tell me...
obviously very few ppl know i'm starting to blog...again....

sometimes.. it's really a chore to talk to someone... especially when there's no common topic. and he's the kind of person who can keep on talking... and i keep on listening.. and "suffering"...
I can't seem to ask him to hang up sumtimes... juz let him talk...

topics i can't stand: Soccer, Eng pop, studies (i dun undestand how ppl can study all the time, and even tok abt studying on the fone.. X:)

Left turn, Right turn

a muz watch show.... thought provoking and of coz.. one of the mre touching films i've seen...

Who has never done any stupid stuff before? come to think of it, i've been doing them too...
Whenever i'm at West Mall, i'll make a detour to its Coffee Bean, hoping to see him there..
When i was in sec 2, always liked to take a longer route through the tower block, hoping to see the seniors...
i even made a trip to Jurong pt, hoping to "bump into" him...
haha... sure brings back memories.

Lone

Ppl ask me y i chose to eat alone, watch movie alone, study alone.. i guz it's bcoz it feels better when u are alone. Friends are good, but few can be forever. Instead of feeling bad/sorrow when they are gone, y not juz try to enjoy being alone?
It's a kind of freedom to be alone. to be able to do what u want without hafing to consider abt anyone else.
Ppl who feel a lot, suffer a lot as well. esp when it comes to this relationship. love hurts most of the time. at least i haf yet found the 'joy' of relationships yet.

but what the heck

Choices

ppl should haf the chance to choose... and 4 once, i made my choice. but my friends are trying to change tt...
not saying that they are wrong... maybe i didn't take a lot of things into consideration. but.. this is my choice. i chose not to go... it may affect this friendship, or even whether i can slp tonight. i'm at a loss...

Why i chose not to go? quite turned off by the place. esp when i'm wth ppl i dun feel 'right' with. It's .. juz a feeling...
my friends really want me to go.... haf to make a decision in less than 15 mins.

Summary: faults of a indecisive guy. bleah.