我永远祝福你

什么是知己？

是i friend u 那么简单？
是形影不离？
是谈得来？
是无所不谈？
是把自己心房敞开，
赤裸裸的面对对方？ （别想歪！）

但赤裸裸的， 也就一点防卫也没有。
人都是需要一点安全感，
所谓 “防人之心不可无”。
强迫把保护盔甲扒开， （i typed bankai accidentally!)
只会让他不知所措，
最后跑的远远的，瑟缩在一角。
这就是常听到的 “我们彼此都需要一点空间”的由来吗？

说了这么多，把问题丢给我，
只会得到一句“不知道”。

人家都说，感觉对了就好。
“对了”又是什么？
你的“对了”和他的“对了”又是否一样？

其实，正如某人说过，
我只须要一小撮朋友就够了。

活在自己熟悉的圈子里
的确更自在。

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on another lighter note,

短短的一个礼拜的假期，
在家的时间比在外头少，
但也与不少许久不见的朋友聚一聚，
感觉挺不错的。

明天就去泰国了。
别想我！

-_-

I am so sick of anat.


on a lighter note, i found this on blogspot














kinda bring back some memories. maybe i shd do it again soon.

OMG!!!!!!!!!

I was searching around on youtube today (dun ask me why when it's a day b4 my exams) and to my suprise, i found this!!!!!!!



erm never knew nasco was so so big haha impressive size huh?
nasco also had fen yong.. but sounds a bit off haha..

gkjabfja;n ria

Gosh i have so little motivation and so short an attention span...

Never Date an Aries

Impatient, restless, and selfish - it's a lot of work to make an Aries happy. And if you drop the ball, your Aries will be gone faster than you can say "I'm sorry"! Instead try dating: Taurus, Virgo, Scorpio, or Pisces

What Sign Shouldn't You Date?

see what i've been doing! argh.

WHY AM I MARRIED?

I shamelessly ripped this of some stranger's blog




You have two choices in life:
You can stay single and be miserable,
or get married and wish you were dead.


At a cocktail party, one woman said to another,
"Aren't you wearing your wedding ring on the wrong finger?"
"Yes, I am. I married the wrong man."



A lady inserted an ad in the classifieds:
"Husband Wanted".
Next day she received a hundred letters.
They all said the same thing:
"You can have mine."


When a woman steals your husband,
there is no better revenge than to let her keep him.


A woman is incomplete until she is married. Then she is finished
.

A little boy asked his father,
"Daddy, how much does it cost to get married?"
Father replied, "I don't know son, I'm still paying."



A young son asked,
"Is it true Dad, that in some parts of Africa
a man doesn't know his wife until he marries her?"
Dad replied, "That happens in every country, son."



Then there was a woman who said,
"I never knew what real happiness was until I got married,
and by then, it was too late."



Marriage is the triumph of imagination over intelligence.



If you want your spouse to listen and
pay strict attention to every word you say -- talk in your sleep.



Just think, if it weren't for marriage, men would go through life thinking they had no faults at all.


First guy says, "My wife's an angel!"
Second guy remarks, "You're lucky, mine's still alive."



" A Woman's Prayer:
Dear Lord, I pray for: Wisdom, To understand a man , to Love and to forgive him , and for patience, For his moods. Because Lord, if I pray for Strength I'll just beat him to death "


Husband and wife are waiting at the bus stop with their nine children. A blind man joins them after a few minutes. When the bus arrives, they find it overloaded and only the wife and the nine kids are able to fit onto the bus.

So the husband and the blind man decide to walk. After a while, the husband gets irritated by the ticking of the stick of the blind man as he taps it on the sidewalk, and says to him, "Why don't you put a piece of rubber at the end of your stick? That ticking sound is driving me crazy."

The blind man replies, "If you would've put a rubber at the end of YOUR stick, we'd be riding the bus . so shut the hell up."

youtube

found this on youtube...



Thought it was cute, but quite sad at the same time...

tarot

i was blog surfing just now, and came across someone talking about tarot cards. then i remembered that i had them too!
shit it doesn't feel right in english

最后一次用塔罗牌应该很久了
可能玩腻了？

仔细想想，
塔罗牌，
是我在人身的分岔路时，
会想要用的东西。
当然不能完全相信，
但也是一种对自己的决定的肯定吧。
毕竟它能透视自己心里深处的想法。

但是最近似乎没什么需要了
并不是因为我已能对自己得决定有信心，
而是现在的生活
犹如一条直路，
乏味，枯燥。

是自己选择的吧。

宫

after staying awake all night, i've finally finished it!

dream

hohoho i had this strange annoying little dream yesterday

i dreamt that i was in the chinese high mph(multi purpose hall), crashing zhang yu ming's lessons, which turned out to be dazu. i sat at the xianyue side, but there were no spare erhus, so i took a zhonghu instead. we were going to play qingdian (i think). i was like so looking forward to actually playing any hu (since i've never touched it since god knows when)...

and just before the first note, my alarm clock rang!!!

-.-

Interesting...

You entered: Zeng Zhi Yong

There are 11 letters in your name.
Those 11 letters total to 75
There are 3 vowels and 8 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 3

The characteristics of #3 are: Expression, verbalization, socialization, the arts, the joy of living.

The expression or destiny for #3:
An Expression of 3 produces a quest for destiny with words along a variety of lines that may include writing, speaking, singing, acting or teaching; our entertainers, writers, litigators, teachers, salesmen, and composers. You also have the destiny to sell yourself or sell just about any product that comes along. You are imaginative in your presentation, and you may have creative talents in the arts, although these are more likely to be latent. You are an optimistic person that seems ever enthusiastic about life and living. You are friendly, loving and social, and people like you because you are charming and such a good conversationalist. Your ability to communicate may often inspire others. It is your role in life to inspire and motivate; to raise the spirits of those around you.

The negative side of number 3 Expression is superficiality. You may tend to scatter your forces and simply be too easygoing. It is advisable for the negative 3 to avoid dwelling on trivial matters, especially gossip.

Your Soul Urge number is: 2

A Soul Urge number of 2 means:
With the Soul Urge number 2, your motivation is centered on friendships, partnerships, and companionship. You want to work with others as a part of a cooperative team. Leadership is not important to you, but making a contribution to the team effort is. You are willing to work hard to achieve a harmonious environment with sensitive, genial people.

In a positive sense, the 2 Soul Urge is sympathetic, extremely concerned and devoted. The nature tends to be very sensitive to others, always tactful and diplomatic. This element in your nature indicates that you are rather emotional. You are persuasive, but in a very quiet way, never forceful. You are the type that makes really close friendships because you are so affectionate and loving.

If this number is over-emphasized in your makeup, you may be over-sensitive, with a delicate ego that is too easily hurt. You may be timid or fearful, too easygoing for your own good.

Your Inner Dream number is: 1

An Inner Dream number of 1 means:
You dream of being a leader and one who is in charge. You want to be known for your courage, daring, and original ideas. You seek unconquered heights. People may get a first impression that you are very aggressive and sure of yourself.

http://www.paulsadowski.com/NameData.asp

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haha i was told to update. hm this is basically to vent my anger. just i as i managed to fix my bro's laptop after HE put some cd in it, he just had to put it in the main com as well. and now i'm at my wits' end.
argh.

p.s death note! i wanna watch death note!

Random fact

erm i just realised my blog background looks like a microarray. -_-"


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was reading rl's blog just now, and noticed the 'flash that he saw 6 years back'...
if i'm not wrong, he introduced to me that set of flash, and that's where i heard 摘星.
can't really believe that it really has been 6 years. 6 years.

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woohoo! i think 爱情魔法师 is quite a nice show leh, have been following it for like 6 episodes?? or more lah. (this shouts himbo, i know)

lucky seven?

Thanks to rl,

7 random facts about me:

1) i love taking the bus home. comfy seats and less ppl to find stuff to talk abt. it really gets quite tiring.
2) i think i have a commitment phobia. can't really get t0o close to someone with pulling back.
3) i want to get wasted one day. hehe..
4) i kinda get distracted during lectures watching (or rather staring at) people. both guys and gals!
5) i ate mee sua for 5 consecutive sch days!
6) i like drawing stuff but can't (well can't do it well) -.-
7) i love bleach!



7 Favourite music at the moment:

1) 孙燕姿 《任性》
2) Micheal Buble - Home
3) (Unknown) - I Wish I Was A Punk Rocker (With Flowers In My Hair)
4) Tanya Chua - I Do Believe
5) 张智成 《担心》
6) Ken Hirai - The Rose
7) (Unknown) - Epilogue


7 Things i like most:

1) stoning
2) sleeping on the bus
3) sleeping anywhere actually
4) bring free of worries
5) sitting next to someone i like (or have an infatuation in)
6) talking with good friends
7) my mp3 player! (shuts me out from the whole)


7 things i say most:

1) har?
2) er....
3) i dunno leh
4) go home and sleep (thanks to boo)
5) go eat go eat!
6) ok...
7) maybe loh..


7 lucky ppl to do this:
damian, david, jinx, ger, yf, wk, (aiyah anyone else lah.)

Med dnd + party nightingale

好疯狂的一夜。
dnd主题是化装舞会。
化妆...面具...
只让我想到...

面具
千方百计寻找适合的面具，
只为了掩饰忧愁。
紧急时刻戴上面具
才发现
面具竟是
透明的。


感觉上和去年的prom有些许相似，
但是少了一种感觉
一种温馨的感觉(pooh所说的fuzzy吧）

我想，一定是少了
一份真挚，巩固，
花上两年栽培的友谊。

唉，一场expensive social gathering罢了。

这也是我第二次的clubbing experience.
看起来，舞厅上就是孤独，寂寞的凝聚点。
各跳各的，小谈几句，然后灌醉自己。
（或许又是我super guarded的心吧）
当然high了一会儿，
但酒醒后，
还是一样。

之后，
在sara家的客厅地上小睡了一会儿。
5.30am 突然醒来，（太冷了）
听到两个朋友似乎是还没睡，
应该是谈了许久吧。
心中是有点羡慕。（嫉妒？）

幸好，
sara有的狗陪着我，
抚摸着它毛茸茸的身体，
也借着它的体温取暖。
顿时也忘了一些烦恼。（比酒还有用）
就一直这样，
睡睡醒醒，醒醒睡睡，
过了一个早上。

Survey

HEy ppl-who-still-read-my-blog!

pls do me a favour by commenting on the entry with 2 main things.

1. something true about me that will boost my ego. (note: true as in what you honestly think of me)
2. something true (again) about me that will completely kill it. (erm. my ego)

just for the fun of it!
oh. anonymous comments are welcomed. altho it would be good to leave names. no pls dun put stuff like:
1. you're so (adjective)
2. but you're so (same adjective) that you ....

=>

Thanks!

一个人

933说说而已：
一个人，也可以幸福
一定可以，绝对可以！
一个人的幸福，在那里？

在自足吧？
但自足对我说是
在固执的说服自己，
一个人不孤单，不寂寞。
明明在人群里，却置身事外。
懵懵懂懂的一天过一天。

或许期望太高了。
去补习时，
看见两个小女孩
在组屋楼下
绕着边缘一直跑。
看似简单，无聊，
她们却乐在其中。

唉，dunno what i'm driving at.
-.-

CAMP

So shuai!

ok this is gonna be in english cos it's going to be so bimbotic.. daniel letterle is so cute! why you people wouldn't really know him coz he's a nobody. well sorta. i was watching this sorta musical film CAMP (which i d/l-ed) and it was really good! talked about this bunch of tennager misfits in society (nerd, fatties, tap dancers, slave to a bitch, gays, drag queens...) who came to this summer music camp called Ovation. and then came daniel letterle, a classic american teen whom everyone drooled over and he hooked up with like everyone. he's so cute!
But more importantly it touched on how we find our place in the society, played out by a few great songs near the end where they had a performance.

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Here's Where I Stand

Here in the Dark
I stand before you
This is my chance to show you my heart
This is the start, this is the start.

I have so much to say and I'm hoping
That your Arms are open
Don't turn away, don't you need me?
But you have to hear me.

Here's where I stand,
Here's who I am
Love me, but don't tell me who I have to be
Here's who I am,
I'm what you see.

You said I had to change and I was trying
But my heart was lying
I'm not a child any longer
I am stroooongerrrr

Here's where I stand,
Here's who I am
Help me, to move on but please don't tell me how
I'm on my way, I'm moving out

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more pics!

华语，优！

最近闲着没事做，看了看过去的entries, 才发现挺幼稚的。看来是因为英文太烂了吧。所以，往后如果还有blog, 也会是华文的！反正华文的，比较少人会花心思去读。

这几天生活环绕在bleach，msn和电视（Ch 55: 情迷黑森林，草本药王...）的周围。虽无聊，但其实还蛮不错的。时间排得满满的，也不会想太多。

消失

在这里消失了两个月，
去了云顶，又消失了两天。
终于回来了。

但是，
我怎么感觉
我似乎真的消失了？
也只能怪我，
不积极，不主动。

好想回到过去，
回到校园生活。
无需积极，
就能保持联络。
毕竟，
大家每天在一起。

真可悲。

或许我就是这样，
这么被动。

一个人，
也没什么大不了。

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不打算找个新的tagboard了。
反正应该会很少用到。

胡言乱语

那天我们说好
不哭泣，不伤悲
不掉一滴眼泪
把彼此放在心中
不忘怀

“要常联络”

但事过境迁，
你我当初的热情已收敛
两人的世界不再有关联
往事也只能藏在心里
渐渐遗忘

“你还好吗？”

打给他吧
没话说吧
太久了吧
太迟了吧
鼓起勇气
拿起听筒

“您所播的号码已不存在”

就这样了吧

Pre OCS

my house!

Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:

Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You love your house and family. You are a gifted artist as well. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people. You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. We also see that you are sensuous, sexual, and privately passionate. You are self-confident and happy with your life.

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It's funny how u can get this kinda readings the day before i report to ocs. well. if u don't know yet, i got into ocs. well, i should be happy abt it, afterall i did tell my commanders in bmt wanted to go to command school. but there's still this part of me that keeps on worrying about how the training will be like and if i can handle it. i mean, physically i'm not that fit, and leadership? i'm not sure yet. or maybe i'm just not confident enough about myself yet. and the whole day of settling nus and ntu applications isn't helping much (altho that has been settled. thanks to everyone who offered help on the tagboard! tho i didn't reply u guys, but really appreciate it!).

well. i've packed my bag, and not yet fold my smart 4. oh well. oh a light note, i d/l-ed transamerica! gonna watch it before i slp, it'll be the only movie i get to watch for the hwole of the 3 weeks. (i'll be confined for 3 weeks.)

erm. just wish me good luck k? and i suppose u needn't worry abt me too. =)

NUS? NTU?

It is so much more irritating after u get ur results than b4. b4 the results, it's only the nervousness and anticipation. but now i'm really not sure of what courses to choose, where to go and what my future will be..

i'm of couse still looking into medicine, but i really have no idea what else to do if i dun get it.. do engineering?? doesn't sound like an interesting career for me..

And to make things more diff, there's this biomedical sciences and TCM double degree offered at NTU. Maybe it's due to da chang jin's influence, all the courses look damn interesting! but the thing is it's at NTU. -_- not saying it isn't good, but there are very few frens i know there yah? and what do you guys think of career prospects of a TCM practitioner?

oh well. maybe the open houses will give me a clearer picture. altho i seriously dun think it'll help a lot.





on a side note, i POP lo! no more REC, now PTE!
and i think i had a wet dream in camp. -_-

BMT

Well... i'm actually blogging!! well.. actually this is the first book out where i actually have more than 24 hrs at home. so i finally get to blog! (after seeing how active my tagboard can get)

Anyways, ns life has been quite a bore lah. with the welfare system in place ( at least for the fist few weeks. they call it the ADJUSTMENT week), not everyday was spent doing PT as many would think so. lots of lectures and slacking going on also lah.

Meals were quite fun lah, getting to see all the friends in other companies, altho the food was quite... repetitive? the cookhouse can seriously publish a book entitled '101 ways to cook chicken'. There is completely no way that u can recover from a sore throat or cough when you are there. that's why strepsils is a must.

the only thing that was a tad more interesting was the thought of getting to fire live rounds ( tt means real bullets) but the actual activity was pathetic lah. LOADS of waiting time. and u stay there for a whole day lah.

now now, a list of interesting stuff
1. commanders can get real dumb sometimes. must have spent too much time in NS le.
2. Their dumbness can actually spread to recruits.
3. There're FHM covers pasted on behind the doors of every cubicle. so that when u are shitting, u get to fantasze. -_-
4. They have BCCT (basic close combat training) which basically consists of a group of ppl looking really retarded punching their hands in the air.
5. field camp rations are actually quite nice.. so nice that it became part of our CNY celebration party.
7. my platoon has really interesting people. One who is damn funny and impersonates commanders like no one's business, and one that can be so laid back even when pushed.
8. As one of the toliet cleaners, we are able to find an underwear almost everyday in the toliet during area cleaning.
9. a commander's command of numbers is only until 5. -_-
10. er. can't think anymore le. just wanna make up 10.

erm. i typed out a longer post just now. but the stupid blogger screwed up. so the post is gone!!!!!! and the thing is i can't be bothered to retype. (so me right?) so i'll be leaving everything until i book out. -.-

Period.