Hi all...
hafing a not very gd time studying....
can't really tune into the studying channel yet...
oh well.. guz haf to try...
juz hope tt i can finish all the topics/subjects

spending time doing the past year papers... getting stuck in the questions...
then revising.... things get in the brain today, falls out tomorrow...
oh well...
i shd go finish up the papers...
seeya~

hm..
starting to feel the pressure of the coming exams...
2 more weeks...

had a tok about my studies and the class spirit...
well..
i did VERY badly for S.S and history....
56 i think..
haf to start revising....

other subjects.. ok loh...
a1, a2 or b3...
so..
think i go study liaoz....

hm..
life may juz get better... will it?
did almost nothing today...
there was no practice...could go home at 1.30..
went wht limwei to westmall to watch him haf lunch..
then went home...
slacked all day...
but did practise erhu..
at least now can memerize wu2 qiong2 dong4...
not bad...

oh yah...
this blog is mainly to thank the ppl who cared ....
thanks rina & yk...
at least there are ppl like u hu cares...
and i guz i'm getting better...
thanks~~

depressed...
life sux in sch...

holiday hmwrk still undone..
exams are coming...
and i'm still in holiday mood...
spells T-R-O-U-B-L-E...

worst...
got 17/40 for my bio..
.. nothing to say...
i think i'm supposd to meet mrs chan tomorrow...
got 56 for s.s for term 3..
gotta buck up...

sometimes.. juz sometimes.. i really think if i haf any "friends"
u noe... friends that really care... not acquaintances

i THINK i've been to good a guy...
so good that i get taken advantage of (not TT meaning)
it's juz tt i dun really reject requests from ppl
i'd accept requests that i can handle...
even if they'll need tons of efforts...

if u noe me...
i seldom get angry... (i hope)
but i do... deep inside...
and hu can lend a listening ear?
no one (at least there's no one who i can( or want to) do it to)
so these feelings juz seem to bottle up within me...
feel like suffocating sumthing also...
my fault? maybe

okay. crapped enough
haf a nice day

kk..
gonna tok about MAF as promised....
went to school at 9am as instructed by yusin, but as usual, yusin was late...
but this time, it seemed later than usual. reason? not really known.

started to tie water bombs with tchsco com and rgs com ppl... guz i had lots of exp on tt already...
-sec 2 tchs camp "Sun1 Zi3 Bin1 Fa3" (Sun ZI's art of war)
-sec 3 june camp (or was it?) : the same thing.
-and now... MAF..

MAF started as usual... nothing much to do... was photographing ppl... guz tchs ppl nv like the camera...
The station games... nothing usual... maybe the ppl dunno each other too well... not too enthu...
but the water games were great!! got to know a few more ppl also...

after dinner.. met rl.. surprised he actually came to find us.... gave me a balloon also... thks a mill~
then we had the skit thing.. quite ok...
even more surprised that rl could actually recognise me voice from the ppl.. haha... guz he heard too much of me liaoz...

overall, MAF was quite gd (or was it?) pity sec 4s couldn't come back... or else may be more fun...
best part was walking about in school barefooted... my shoe was wet mah...
then.. basically.. nothing much..

hm... trying to slowly do me holiday hmwrk... guz a lot of them also hafn;t finish..
so nvm..
+ gd luck to seniors 4 their prelims~ (and rl too)

shit...
i'll tok about MAF later...( as in next blog)

woke up at 5.15am today....
got a terrible stomachache..
must be food poisoning from the uncooked satays...
dammit... stayed in that damned toilet for almost 45mins then got better...
but still very uncomfortable...

went to cousin's place..
his baby man3 yue4 mag...
so cute!! even got to carry him..
scared that i would hurt him also...

went home to pia hmwrk,
then decided to study for prelims...
i'm gonna die for it...
believe me...

supposedly finish studying, which is obviously not enough...
plus, my stomach's still uneasy..., as if it's hurting..., but not tt much...
ouch...
how to sit fer exams liddat???
anyways gtg.. study more 4 the exams..
bye!
wish me luck, and pls.. let me get well soon...

argh...
my life's in a mess... literally....
my room's scary... so messy that i dun even dare to stay in there for too long (except sleeping, that is)
my brain's scary.. prelims are near, homework's not done, tuition work not done, and i spent the whole day.. slacking...
can't get me priorities right...

geog common test was a failure, i guz
although i finished the paper, which some didn't, i was quite sure that i didn't answer the questions completely.. oh well.. wadeva...
the mcq were also quite diff...
btw, thks to rl for revising with me... would have missed out lots of things if not 4 u...

after the test, went with liangsheng and woonkeat to serene for lunch... met kaihong and jinyang on the way back...
then went to see hcco practice... was wondering whether to go in... quite embaarassing, especially when i haf no business there... back nevertheless went in loh... their standards... ok loh...

oops... forgot to mention... happy birhtday, eugene lim...
didn't get u anything.. but this greeting shd be gd enough right??

trying not to worry about the MAF... let's juz hope it'll be f..u..n..., k?
very tired now... only 12.07am... dun wanna go to slp..
wadeva lah
tt's all 4 todae...
haf a nice day..

hm..
maybe i shd blog more often...

doesn't feel gd to be stuck between two ppl, not to say more..
what am i supposed to do when two of my friends aren't friends with each other? oh well...
but come to think of it, i've got used to it, hafn't i? right from primary sch... *vexed*

today's zhanglao lesson was bored... couldn't memorize the wu qiong dong... not going to(for the moment).. had fingering problems (not caring for the moment) does tt mean i'm slacking? *... ...*

.:zzy's status:.
hp: (near)0 / 100
energy: used up
action: study 4 geog test
well... 2 out of 6 chapters done, 5 more hours...
wadeva...

ohoh... apologizing to ppl whom i owe money.. :p
i'll take some time to return it..

and.. thanks to all who accompanied me on friday and monday...
had a great time...
*ohana means family. family means no one gets left behind* *lilo and stitch*